Hi, all! It's been some time since I posted, but I felt the need to put something up tonight.
Within the past two weeks, I signed up for two different events, both of which I'll be doing for the first time.
The first is a local 5K on May 19. I never ran any sort of race, and decided that I would do a 5K this year. I was on the fence about it for a few weeks, but finally printed and filled out the entry form today. It's going in the mail tomorrow. I'm excited and can't wait to start training! (Also, this might help me to blog more, with training progress and such ;-) )
The second is the annual Fitbloggin conference in Baltimore this September. Again, it's something I've never done. I've never been to Fitbloggin, and I've never taken an overnight trip by myself. I can't wait to go to that either, meet several of my Twitter friends, and have a good time! =)
On another note, I made it to 85 pounds lost! Only 15 more to go before I hit my weight loss goal! I made it this far, I got this to the end and then some!
That's all from me tonight! Peace!
Kisses and hugs,
Tracy
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Just...amazed, and a warrior queen to boot
Hi, all! Ten days into 2012 and I hope it's treating you all well!
I know I haven't posted lately, and it's partly from time, but mostly from a lack of words.
Tonight, while tweeting about not knowing what to blog about, my friend Jennifer (@flowermom3 on Twitter), was telling me that I've come a long way, and that I should be amazed at what I've done.
So, thanks to her, that's tonight's post.
When I started this journey almost two and a half years ago, I was a weak (both physically and emotionally) 24 year old whose life was more out of control than I thought it was.
I realized I had to turn my life from "I can't" and "I'm not" to one of "I can" and "I am." Throughout this journey, I for the most part have. However, I have still had those moments of breakdowns and still seeing myself as that weak person still unhappy with myself.
Just recently, as in the last two or three months, I've had a breakthrough. I'm truly seeing myself as that strong, skinny person that I am! I've realized that I have changed throughout this journey, and that I can do just about anything.
That includes not beating myself up over the small stuff. For example, I had a sluggish elliptical run (2.15 miles in 15 minutes) today. I was so upset with that today because I know I can go so much faster. However, looking back on it tonight, I remember a time when I couldn't even go that fast. I also told myself that what really matters is that I went in there and gave it my all today, sore body and all. I also realized that I can always try again the next day.
One of my favorite cardio songs, which has turned into one of my favorite songs ever, is Lady Gaga's "Marry the Night." It can blast me through a bad run or put me in a good mood when I'm feeling a bit down. Yeah, I know it's pretty much a song about partying and such, but I think the opening verse just describes my journey, especially more recently, even more than the Jordin Sparks song that serves as my blog title does. Anyway, here's the verse:
"I'm gonna marry the night
I won't give up on my life
I'm a warrior queen
live passionately tonight."
In two and a half years, it's safe to say I've become a warrior queen on this journey.
Kisses and hugs,
Tracy
I know I haven't posted lately, and it's partly from time, but mostly from a lack of words.
Tonight, while tweeting about not knowing what to blog about, my friend Jennifer (@flowermom3 on Twitter), was telling me that I've come a long way, and that I should be amazed at what I've done.
So, thanks to her, that's tonight's post.
When I started this journey almost two and a half years ago, I was a weak (both physically and emotionally) 24 year old whose life was more out of control than I thought it was.
I realized I had to turn my life from "I can't" and "I'm not" to one of "I can" and "I am." Throughout this journey, I for the most part have. However, I have still had those moments of breakdowns and still seeing myself as that weak person still unhappy with myself.
Just recently, as in the last two or three months, I've had a breakthrough. I'm truly seeing myself as that strong, skinny person that I am! I've realized that I have changed throughout this journey, and that I can do just about anything.
That includes not beating myself up over the small stuff. For example, I had a sluggish elliptical run (2.15 miles in 15 minutes) today. I was so upset with that today because I know I can go so much faster. However, looking back on it tonight, I remember a time when I couldn't even go that fast. I also told myself that what really matters is that I went in there and gave it my all today, sore body and all. I also realized that I can always try again the next day.
One of my favorite cardio songs, which has turned into one of my favorite songs ever, is Lady Gaga's "Marry the Night." It can blast me through a bad run or put me in a good mood when I'm feeling a bit down. Yeah, I know it's pretty much a song about partying and such, but I think the opening verse just describes my journey, especially more recently, even more than the Jordin Sparks song that serves as my blog title does. Anyway, here's the verse:
"I'm gonna marry the night
I won't give up on my life
I'm a warrior queen
live passionately tonight."
In two and a half years, it's safe to say I've become a warrior queen on this journey.
Kisses and hugs,
Tracy
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Quick Update
Hey, all! I know it's been awhile since I last blogged, and I do apologize, and will probably make a New Year's resolution to blog more...lol.
Since I last blogged, I hit 3 milestones:
1) I hit my 80 pound loss. FINALLY! 20 pounds to goal now. =)
2) I bought my first ever pair of Abercrombie and Fitch jeans. Size 12. They are a little tight, but THEY FIT!! =D Here's that pic:
3) Last Friday, I made it through a 10k (6.22 miles) on the elliptical. Well, actually, I didn't want to get off the machine, so I ended up doing a little bit more...
Well, there were some slow stretches on this workout, and I did walk a few times, but I didn't give up!
Actually, I realized there is a fourth one as well. I went into the mall on Tuesday and went into Hollister. Just for kicks, I tried on a pair of size 11 jeans. No surprise, they didn't fit. I'm not even sure you can call it close to fitting. However, I was okay with it. A year ago, hell, even six months ago, I would have pulled a fit and burst into tears in the dressing room. This time, I held my head high and realized that there is more to life than wearing Hollister jeans.
I'm taking a mental health day, so it's back to watching Cars 2 for me! Good night to you all!
Kisses and hugs,
Tracy
Since I last blogged, I hit 3 milestones:
1) I hit my 80 pound loss. FINALLY! 20 pounds to goal now. =)
2) I bought my first ever pair of Abercrombie and Fitch jeans. Size 12. They are a little tight, but THEY FIT!! =D Here's that pic:
Well, there were some slow stretches on this workout, and I did walk a few times, but I didn't give up!
Actually, I realized there is a fourth one as well. I went into the mall on Tuesday and went into Hollister. Just for kicks, I tried on a pair of size 11 jeans. No surprise, they didn't fit. I'm not even sure you can call it close to fitting. However, I was okay with it. A year ago, hell, even six months ago, I would have pulled a fit and burst into tears in the dressing room. This time, I held my head high and realized that there is more to life than wearing Hollister jeans.
I'm taking a mental health day, so it's back to watching Cars 2 for me! Good night to you all!
Kisses and hugs,
Tracy
Monday, October 17, 2011
Who's Afraid of 13? Not this girl!
Hi, guys! I know it's been over two months since I last updated, but tonight, I felt more motivation to write.
The last two months, I've been more or less down on myself. I know I've come so far in two years, but there are moments when I still struggle with the self-esteem. I think I sound like a broken record when I say this, but I think it's partially due to never knowing what it's like to feel good about myself. I feel better about myself, of course, but there are times when I still have that insecurity and still wish I was smaller, faster, or yes, prettier, than I am.
However, on Saturday, I hit a turning point. An emotional one.
I went to Kohl's on Saturday afternoon, kind of a spur of the moment shopping trip on the way to get dinner. I went into the juniors' department, just wanting one pair of jeans, not expecting my size to have changed at all. I picked out a few things, including a pair of Candie's flare leg jeans in a size 13, just for kicks.
Those were the first jeans I tried on, and THEY ACTUALLY FIT!! Here's the dressing room pic:
I loved them, then realized they were (obviously) too long, even if I wore my black dress shoes with them. I did try on another pair, a boot cut pair, still a size 13, along with a juniors XL top:
I ended up buying the whole outfit. It cost me $31. This is what I call winning. =D
Saturday showed just how far I've really come, even if I didn't truly realize it. I know I can finish what I started and I will see it through to the end!
Kisses and hugs,
Tracy
The last two months, I've been more or less down on myself. I know I've come so far in two years, but there are moments when I still struggle with the self-esteem. I think I sound like a broken record when I say this, but I think it's partially due to never knowing what it's like to feel good about myself. I feel better about myself, of course, but there are times when I still have that insecurity and still wish I was smaller, faster, or yes, prettier, than I am.
However, on Saturday, I hit a turning point. An emotional one.
I went to Kohl's on Saturday afternoon, kind of a spur of the moment shopping trip on the way to get dinner. I went into the juniors' department, just wanting one pair of jeans, not expecting my size to have changed at all. I picked out a few things, including a pair of Candie's flare leg jeans in a size 13, just for kicks.
Those were the first jeans I tried on, and THEY ACTUALLY FIT!! Here's the dressing room pic:
I loved them, then realized they were (obviously) too long, even if I wore my black dress shoes with them. I did try on another pair, a boot cut pair, still a size 13, along with a juniors XL top:
I ended up buying the whole outfit. It cost me $31. This is what I call winning. =D
Saturday showed just how far I've really come, even if I didn't truly realize it. I know I can finish what I started and I will see it through to the end!
Kisses and hugs,
Tracy
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Happy Birthday to Me!
Hi, everyone! I know I haven't posted in awhile, partly to busyness, and partly lack of inspiration.
For those who haven't seen it on Twitter and/or Facebook, today is my birthday. I'm 26, yet feel younger than that even.
This last year has been an up and down year, both emotionally and physically. It was a continuation in my weight loss journey, and I have learned that it is as much emotional as it is physical. I think that as I enter my 26th year, I have learned a lot more than I did going into my 25th. I learned that it is okay to put myself first, and not feel guilty when I do. I also learned that I can do it on my own. Granted, there are times when it's hard to do so, and I'm not saying that this whole journey is easy, but it can be done.
For those wondering, I did not hit my weight loss goal by my birthday. I am down to 169 pounds, which is 19 pounds short of my initial goal. However, I reset my goal by 4 pounds. I am now going for 100 pounds lost. It won't be easy, but I am determined to see it through!
Thank you for all your love and support during the last year and for the coming year and beyond!
Kisses and hugs,
Tracy
For those who haven't seen it on Twitter and/or Facebook, today is my birthday. I'm 26, yet feel younger than that even.
This last year has been an up and down year, both emotionally and physically. It was a continuation in my weight loss journey, and I have learned that it is as much emotional as it is physical. I think that as I enter my 26th year, I have learned a lot more than I did going into my 25th. I learned that it is okay to put myself first, and not feel guilty when I do. I also learned that I can do it on my own. Granted, there are times when it's hard to do so, and I'm not saying that this whole journey is easy, but it can be done.
For those wondering, I did not hit my weight loss goal by my birthday. I am down to 169 pounds, which is 19 pounds short of my initial goal. However, I reset my goal by 4 pounds. I am now going for 100 pounds lost. It won't be easy, but I am determined to see it through!
Thank you for all your love and support during the last year and for the coming year and beyond!
Kisses and hugs,
Tracy
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
FINALLY Loving Myself!
Hey, all! I know it's been awhile since I wrote. I've had no inspiration to write lately. Blah. =P
Anyway, yesterday, I had a major breakthrough on my weight loss journey!
I finally have started to love myself and see myself as the smaller person I am. Almost two years in to this, and for the first time, I'm truly loving myself.
You see, I bought a pair of size 17 Unionbay khaki short shorts last summer. Part of me did it because they were only $3 on the clearance rack at Kohl's. Part of me was planning on wearing them that summer. Well, it didn't happen then. I still was not fully confident to wear them at all last year.
Well, yesterday, that all changed. I put them on, and honestly, it was such a strange feeling. Then again, over the last two years, I've had a lot of strange feelings, not just about clothes, but all sorts of other stuff too (but that's another post). Anyway, I put them on and went out wearing them! And I felt so confident with myself! That was a huge step in this journey, and from here on out, it's no more negatives! Well, mostly no more negatives...lol.
Before I end this post, here's a pic from yesterday! I am now 171 pounds (down 75 pounds!) and in a juniors' size 17!
Tracy
Anyway, yesterday, I had a major breakthrough on my weight loss journey!
I finally have started to love myself and see myself as the smaller person I am. Almost two years in to this, and for the first time, I'm truly loving myself.
You see, I bought a pair of size 17 Unionbay khaki short shorts last summer. Part of me did it because they were only $3 on the clearance rack at Kohl's. Part of me was planning on wearing them that summer. Well, it didn't happen then. I still was not fully confident to wear them at all last year.
Well, yesterday, that all changed. I put them on, and honestly, it was such a strange feeling. Then again, over the last two years, I've had a lot of strange feelings, not just about clothes, but all sorts of other stuff too (but that's another post). Anyway, I put them on and went out wearing them! And I felt so confident with myself! That was a huge step in this journey, and from here on out, it's no more negatives! Well, mostly no more negatives...lol.
Before I end this post, here's a pic from yesterday! I am now 171 pounds (down 75 pounds!) and in a juniors' size 17!
Kisses and hugs,
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Putting the Weight Back On
Hi all! For the record, you DID read that title right.
Yes, I did put the weight back on, but not literally. I don't think I could do it for real even if I tried.
At the gym this morning, I told my trainer that I hit my 75 pound weight loss milestone (this morning, actually! =D). Guess the first thing he made me do.
That's right. Put the weight back on. Well, not exactly on.
He got two 35 pound kettlebells, made me put one in each hand, and do two laps around the gym holding them. Even though it was 5 pounds less than I lost, it was still really hard to do. By the time it was over, I wanted to cry. I could not believe that just under two years ago, I was literally carrying that weight around 24/7/365! It was such hard work! It was then that I truly realized that I could not put that weight back on to my body ever again.
Just figured I would share that with everyone! Have a good night!
Kisses and hugs,
Tracy
Yes, I did put the weight back on, but not literally. I don't think I could do it for real even if I tried.
At the gym this morning, I told my trainer that I hit my 75 pound weight loss milestone (this morning, actually! =D). Guess the first thing he made me do.
That's right. Put the weight back on. Well, not exactly on.
He got two 35 pound kettlebells, made me put one in each hand, and do two laps around the gym holding them. Even though it was 5 pounds less than I lost, it was still really hard to do. By the time it was over, I wanted to cry. I could not believe that just under two years ago, I was literally carrying that weight around 24/7/365! It was such hard work! It was then that I truly realized that I could not put that weight back on to my body ever again.
Just figured I would share that with everyone! Have a good night!
Kisses and hugs,
Tracy
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)